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Head injury’s and links to memory problems

Many years before my diagnosis, I had a fall from a ladder from around 10 feet and vaugley remember hitting my head which sounded like an explosion at the time, then nothing i woke up unsure as to what had happened or where I was, then I realised that I needed to go to the toilet to have a pee Moments later I realised that I had mistaken a washbasin for a urinal, and then had to wash it all away and clean in as I was embarrassed that I had done such a thing I then went back to where I had been working, and was staggered to see the damage I had done, because I thought I could manage on my own, instead of waiting for my colleague At this stage I was still unstable and felt drunk, and my head felt as if it had been hit by a very large hammer I went home as my leg was bleeding, and later that night my wife took me to hospital as the top right hand side of my head was badly bruised, but they didn’t want to know anything about it. I struggled with head aches for many years, but around 5 year...
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Brain and mouth never engaged

As we get older things change which are never expected, and never explained. I do feel like many elderly people that our thoughts and what we say can have very different meanings, sometimes funny and other times hurtful, and this is without ever trying. i often feel as if my brain is not engaged with my mouth, as I sometimes open my mouth and things come out totally wrong or the words are not in the right order. Sometimes the wrong words come out which can be frightening to all around especially myself, because I know what I am trying to say but the brain does its own thing. its like trying to read a book these days, I see words which no longer mean anything at all to me, where they did before. Quite often my brain tells me that the words on the page are totally different to what is actually written down, and this can be distressing when I go out somewhere and read a sign like a road sign, and my mouth comes out with something different.
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Seeing and reading things which are not there

 These days struggle i read clearly, because i sometimes see words which are not written down so my brain must be putting down words which are not there, and this can be difficult.  It also happens when I listen to a person talking, I don't always pick the conversation properly,  and then totally misunderstand what has been said. This means my brain is telling me one thing, when in real life it's totally wrong This can be very upsetting to cope with, and it makes me feel as if I am going round the bend or going mad I tried to do simple crosswords, but find that I sometimes put words on the wrong squares at times which can be frustrating,  but I think my brain is telling me that words are spelt a different way to reality  Not seeing things that are there can be depressing, and stressful. The number of times I have been searching for something, and have not noticed it is a annoying, then someone like my wife comes along and sees it straight away. This illness is d...
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How life has changed

 Although I have been living with a form Dementia ,  diagnosed years ago, things seemed to move slowly and I was able to attempt to keep up with things, even at a slower pace  Now with this fast moving life I am struggling to cope with the many changes, and I confess that I don't like what I see around me at times Because of my hearing problems , which keep changing, which means i can be partially deaf one moment, then my hearing can be accute the next. People either talk too fast or assume that I am stupid.  Other times these very loud fireworks make me terrified at times, and struggle to listen to calming music because of the ground shaking with these so called loud,  land mine fireworks   How people who served in wars cope when they are living with PTSD  i  don't know, because it must tip them over or close to the edge at times. There days with Halloween i simply don't cope with some of the costumes or the very large spiders. The other day I w...
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